Chapter XII

The Green Map Resolution

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“They will hate you if you are beautiful. They will hate you if you are successful. They will hate you if you are right. They will hate you if you are popular. They will hate you when you get attention. They will hate you when people in their life like you. They will hate you if you worship a different version of their God. They will hate you if you are spiritual. They will hate you if you have courage. They will hate you if you have an opinion. They will hate you when people support you. They will hate you when they see you happy. Heck, they will hate you while they post prayers and religious quotes on Pinterest and Facebook. They just hate. However, remember this: They hate you because you represent something they feel they don’t have. It really isn’t about you. It is about the hatred they have for themselves. So smile today because there is something you are doing right that has a lot of people thinking about you.” - Shannon L. Alder

The most unpleasant truth is that someone can “hate you” no matter what you do. Your more adverse “mates” will always feel resentful towards you for being surprisingly different and outrageous. I mean in the astonishing and therefore “special” sense of outrageous. Rather than feeling inspired, others may turn into a “greenish” hue by “picturing you”, perhaps “traveling” all the time and waking up to something “enjoyable”, in opposition to their own self, which is conditioned to be serious and realistic. It bothers them subconsciously because “once upon a time” they also had a “dream”, which for some reason may still be on hold, forgotten, or perhaps has become just realistically “impossible”, they might tell you. However, when that “green of possession" arises, they will not only rationalize their own failure, but furthermore may try to take away your success, at times into a verge of murderous frenzy… Usually, they come up with all sort of justifications and a million of reasons why “they couldn’t do x, y or z…” number one, being how “you don’t have as much responsibilities as they do” or how “you had all these resources which they actually didn´t”, they say. However, one should not take this behavior personally. Which is what Shannon L. Alder tries to tell us, and by us I mean all of us, both parts involved within this ancient “back and forth” green shaming symphony of criticism. Understand that who is criticizing may feel less than greater by realizing how they continued to lap on their progress, which increases their chances of turning “green with envy” and what they are really doing is telling their own selves excuses, in order to feel better. On the other hand, “A related thing creatives do to avoid in being creative, is to involve themselves with crazymakers” Says Cameron. “Crazymakers”, as she describes them, in the Artist’s way “are those personalities that create storm centers”, “spend your time and money”, “ break deals”, “destroy schedules, “expect special treatment”, “discount your reality” and “pretend you’re crazy”. Getting “bitten” by those green eyed “crazymakers” may not be a good idea since they might be green contagious in a heartbeat. However, as Adler beautifully points above, not all criticism is bad, in fact, when it hits the mark you, should actually “smile” and as an artist its shows that you could have a new valid and more verdant path to be fed up since they are all “calling you by your name” therefore there’s definitely something you’re “doing right”.

Creative people can be easily sabotaged and “Not suprisingly the most poisonous playmates for us as recovering creatives are people whose creativity is still blocked”, quotes, Julia Cameron, in The Artist’s way. Thereforre, from Artist to Artist, don’t expect them to applaud your creative recovery, because deep down they may feel pissed off, maybe because you start to speak your mind and feel more capable of saying no; using your time wisely by wanting to invest it into a project that adds something amazing to the world.

Green Envy and Jelousy are very close in meaning. However, Jealousy has more to do with holding on to what you have because you are afraid that someone else is going to take it away from you, while Envy, on the other hand, has to do with wanting what someone else has. Both operate on many different levels and they have been around and within us humans, since far back in time or as widely across civilizations as one can peer or suppose. From Gil-Ganesh’s Romps B.C.E, to the Bible, to Shakespeare, the to the modern day soap operas and drama series. For example; the Greeks thought the body produced too much bile, giving the skin a green tint, when individuals felt sick, ill or jealous.

The Bible, pointed about what happens to a person who suffers with the Green Sickness -“But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. This is not the wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice.” James 3:14-16

A lot has been written about the notion of “green sickness”, and it was used long before Shakespeare described the “green eyed monster”, nicknamed as so for being stuck with jealousy, which is a great image that involves the imagery "to be taken as hostage" by this feeling of discontent or covetousness (by wanting to hold on to what you have, which is often caused by fear of unfaithfulness, particularly in a relationship) This feeling of resentment is generally described as a sort of emotive rivalry between people, and it is seen as a momentary eruption of emotions, which the individual feels as completely justified within their actions, as if they are literally possessed by a "monster" or the demon itself at that moment".

Shakespeare used it at least three times in Merchant of Venice where he talked about green-eyed jealousy; in Anthony and Cleopatra, where he mentions a green sickness, and Othello where Lago refers to the green-eyed monster. “O! Beware, my lord, of jealousy; it is the green-eyed monster which doth mock the meat it feeds on.” — Othello

Later on in the 18 century, "Green with envy" became the colorful term chosen by Mark Twain “It turned Brer Merlin green with envy and spite, which was a great satisfaction to me” — A Connecticut Yankee by Mark Twain, regarding a person or being with the craving to possess something; being this one of the deadly sins, Envy is to feel resentful of those more fortunate than ourselves and to covet the things that these people have. This unwilling, sticky emotion, has long been regarded by many other artists as the tough old friend; its emotional content of experience roars in the head by driving us to be envious and unhappy of another’s advantages, possessions, or abilities, which stems from this "collective" feeling of insecurity, which is somehow a false belief of being "small", or not as competent, beautiful, strong, or worthy as others or other cultures. The green fascination among artists and audiences are one of human’s greatest weaknesses. Fierce energies in our behalf, and part of the fuel to act and react when action holds the key for freedom. Paradoxly, green is also the colour of hope, and the biggest changes often begin with small ones.

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The “green sickness” has been also a long-time friend for myself, and quite ironically, I am a Scorpio and my favourite colour is actually green. The Scorpio´s jealousy is exactly that green-eyed monster which has the potential to drive away the person, situation or whatever thing that we love the most, because of our stupid fear of losing. I happen to believe that Jealousy has been that demon of possession that stopped by once and a while, just to keep on reminding me that I though I had no choice but to be jealous. Green, the colour of jealousy, stripped me away from the ability to act and see things in perspective for decades, until the time when I could finally see it as illusion, recognizing it and dissolving it, consequentially moving towards freedom, looking for that "key on hold" to move into action. As long as I kept looking for that hidden key, I couldn't find it, therefore I kept walking inside that green "forest", until one day, in The Artist's Way, when I stumble into this idea and notion of Jealousy as being a green mask of fear "fear that we aren’t able to get what we want; frustration that somebody else seems to be getting what is rightfully ours, even if we are too frightened to reach for it" - on that day the key to freedom found me and a whole new world of possibilities opened up for me when I started to see that Jealously is in fact a map with a resolution, and that “green with envy” is part of the fuel to move into action, to finally understand that the colour of jealousy is after all, the same colour that represents hope. In this context, Artist to Artist, my hope is that you recognize this “Green Altas” as a map and start taking advange of it, hopefully enjoying it differently from now on.